Friday, October 23, 2009

birthday blues

Today is my birthday and the only thing I want is the one thing I can't have. I want more time with my friend Cheryl. She’s been gone for 10 months now and I still can’t imagine a life without her. I guess I will have to try. The fact that she wasn’t here to help me celebrate this birthday really brought it home. Until I met her a birthday was just, well.... a birthday. Sure, it was acknowledged, celebrated even, but it was not CELEBRATED in the Cheryl way. To her it was a B I  R T H D A Y!!!  Plans were made weeks in advance as to where “the Birthday Celebration” would occur. We had so many birthday dinners together we were always on the lookout for a New Place. There was always a homemade cake ~ sorry Sid, I know this was the one cake she wouldn’t let you “test”. As I look around my home there are so many memories reflected in the birthday presents she gave... the garden angel she just knew I would love, the pieces of pottery from her hometown of Nelson, the gorgeous glass tray she carried home in her suitcase from Romania (yes, glass in her suitcase). Last year she brought me a beautiful hand carved wooden trinket box from Italy (I heard later that she agonized over which one was just perfect). The angel, the pottery, the trinket box and so many other wonderful gifts, while very much loved, I would trade in an instant for a few more minutes with her; to laugh over the inane happenings on Greys Anatomy, to be furious over the “movie” ending in Her Sisters Keeper, to gossip about other friends ...for her to finish my sentences for me. ....
I miss you Cherylina.... 



1 comment:

Gladys Love said...

EGAD! I've really messed up this time. Do you know what FOOL I feel like spending the day with you and never for a moment remembering it was your birthday? I think Alzheimers must be setting in! And then YOU buy the tea! I hereby apologize publicly for being such a poor substitute for a really great friend. But I'll try to make it up to you! Love, G.